A day off...

Today I took the day off. Tony was off and I just needed a day to be with him and get a few things done. I woke up at 6:30am automatically because my body is so used to it and decided to get up and use it to work on the wedding favors. (which finally got done today! Hours of work!) I took a quick morning walk with Alfie because it always helps me wake up. I love the early morning feeling in the air- wakes me right up! After having some MickyD's pancakes for breakfast we then went and checked the trolley, yes, trolley, for the wedding. We are defiantly going with it. We love it and Alfie is allowed to ride in it with us! Ran some errands, ate some boulder creek, shopped at target, and got some ice cream and are now home relaxing. The day is fading already! I bought a punch of flower seeds to plant on my day off on Saturday. I am SO EXCITED to get planting! I hope it is nice out on Saturday!! But I heard it is supposed to rain :( I am really excited to plant the sunflower seeds we bought...I hope they grow! We'll see. I found that the plants I grew last year regrew! I was so happy- but sad because they are now under the new deck we have by our front door. I wish I remembered to move the plants before we built the deck!
So I always try to look objectively about getting married, because I have seen some terrible marriages in my life and do not ever want to end up in one. I have came to the conclusion that the only terrible thing I can think of about marrying Tony is that I am afraid something bad will happen to one of us one day and one of us will have to continue on without the other. But I know I can't think of that now. It's too sad. I hope we live a long, long, long, happy life together. (with alfie!) It's amazing how much the two of us enjoy each other’s company. We love days off together! It's just absolutely ridiculous...if we always continue enjoying each other’s company like this we will always be okay. :) All in all, a happy day!

lets hurt the bride...

Is it true that when we are supposed to be at our happiest that is when others are always trying to bring us down??

I think so.

ETA: So- a few days later I am editing this. I still believe this, but it is true for most people but not all. Just wanted to clear that up.

Stress be gone

Seems all I ever get done anymore is work. I go to work- I come home and work- I work on my day off at my other job- and in the evenings I work on wedding planning. Everything seems to feel like work latley. Even things I am supposed to be enjoying. I want to enjoy every aspect of what I am doing but it is hard for me, I am one of those stressed out kind of people. Things need to be done perfectly or else I am not happy. If people are bitches around me...I get upset.
I finally took a nice relaxing bath after my second job yesterday. It was the nicest 20 minutes I've had in a long time. Though I do get to go out with friends and colleagues it still seems like work to me most of the time. Socializing, talking, thinking... work. My de-stressor latley is walking with my pup and my bub around the neighborhood. Which I enjoy...we always notice something new, find something interesting to talk about... or just simply stay quiet and take in the outside. But my bath was nice. Quiet, different. Felt like I was really taking care of myself. Other than flooding my bathroom, it was great. I used a new sea salt scrub and then decided to paint my finger and toe nails pink- also unusual. And it lasted a whole 3 hours until I decided to pick up my bass guitar. (Another joyful experience latley). Maybe life isn't so bad afterall. I think I was just looking to the negatives instead of accentuating the positives. I am going to try to relax more often. Stop focusing on all of the negatives. Whatever happen around me happens. I am going to change my outlook. I dont care what happens in the world around me- the jealous and assonon people around me can do as they please- I will ignore you and go on singing my happy tune. You don't want me there- good- I don't want to be there. You will no longer get me down. Wedding planning-almost done! There is wonderful lights at the end of the tunnel! I cannot wait for that great day...5/25/08. I will focus on what makes me happy- what makes me me. Forget all the rest! Like good ol' Bing and the Andrew sisters said....
Accentuate the positive-Eliminate the negative- Forget about your worries and your strife.