Monday, March 31, 2008

lets hurt the bride...

Is it true that when we are supposed to be at our happiest that is when others are always trying to bring us down??

I think so.

ETA: So- a few days later I am editing this. I still believe this, but it is true for most people but not all. Just wanted to clear that up.

Stress be gone

Seems all I ever get done anymore is work. I go to work- I come home and work- I work on my day off at my other job- and in the evenings I work on wedding planning. Everything seems to feel like work latley. Even things I am supposed to be enjoying. I want to enjoy every aspect of what I am doing but it is hard for me, I am one of those stressed out kind of people. Things need to be done perfectly or else I am not happy. If people are bitches around me...I get upset.
I finally took a nice relaxing bath after my second job yesterday. It was the nicest 20 minutes I've had in a long time. Though I do get to go out with friends and colleagues it still seems like work to me most of the time. Socializing, talking, thinking... work. My de-stressor latley is walking with my pup and my bub around the neighborhood. Which I enjoy...we always notice something new, find something interesting to talk about... or just simply stay quiet and take in the outside. But my bath was nice. Quiet, different. Felt like I was really taking care of myself. Other than flooding my bathroom, it was great. I used a new sea salt scrub and then decided to paint my finger and toe nails pink- also unusual. And it lasted a whole 3 hours until I decided to pick up my bass guitar. (Another joyful experience latley). Maybe life isn't so bad afterall. I think I was just looking to the negatives instead of accentuating the positives. I am going to try to relax more often. Stop focusing on all of the negatives. Whatever happen around me happens. I am going to change my outlook. I dont care what happens in the world around me- the jealous and assonon people around me can do as they please- I will ignore you and go on singing my happy tune. You don't want me there- good- I don't want to be there. You will no longer get me down. Wedding planning-almost done! There is wonderful lights at the end of the tunnel! I cannot wait for that great day...5/25/08. I will focus on what makes me happy- what makes me me. Forget all the rest! Like good ol' Bing and the Andrew sisters said....
Accentuate the positive-Eliminate the negative- Forget about your worries and your strife.